In three long short months of being married, I have somehow managed to lose my identity in Christ to find my identity in my husband. The problem here lies in the simple fact that man(kind) disappoints. So here I am left feeling alone and wanting more. Not only this, but it leaves my sweet husband feeling insufficient, and to be honest just plain annoyed with his insecure mess of a wife. I want my marriage to be more than that. I want ME to be more than that.
Isaiah 54:5, "For your Maker is your husband--the Lord Almighty is His name..."
I absolutely believe marriage is God's greatest gift outside of salvation. So in believing that, what a beautiful picture of what my relationship with God should be. An intimate relationship between two lovers.
Tonight, my heart is broken. I feel as if I've let down my God and my husband. But defeat is of Satan, and I will not claim it as my own. My prayer is that the Lord will capture my heart for it to be fully His.
Jeremiah 31:3-4, "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness. I will build you up again, and you will be rebuilt. Again you will take up your tambourines and go out to dance with the joyful."
Joy, now that I will claim as mine.
